Seriously?

I read something very disturbing a few minutes ago. A kid in Miami committed suicide on a Web cam while people watched him. Seriously? How F*d up is society? How could no one immediately notify the police? I don't understand how these viewers could be so callous and heartless. How could you live with that for the rest of your life? Some of the viewers said they thought he was kidding because he had threatened it before... well, hello, there is a clue right there that this kid needs help. I feel there is a social responsibility with situations like that. I am so shocked by this. It makes me sick.

http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5gtO167ywBhMURgOmp4ScpR7rBdvgD94KC5HG0 

Life as a big girl.

Is weird. I found a job. My blog didn't really go as planned. I was going to blog about the trials and tribulations of trying to find a job. And though it was hard and I went through a lot, I found a job rather quickly, or the job found me. It all sort of fell into my lap and now here I am working a 9 to 5, wondering where 22 years of my life went. Where did my childhood go, and high school and college? It's all memories, conveniently bundled and stored into different parts of my brain. 

That brings me to say... I hope that those of you who are still working towards that degree, enjoy every single second of the college life you have left. I had a wonderful time in college, but if I knew how much I would miss it now, I would have lived it up so much more. It kills me when I hear people complain about studying for a test, or read a Facebook status about not wanting to write a paper. I would give almost anything to write a 10-page interpretation of what I think the dot on the blank page means, or create a document in Quark that takes 5 hours, or develop a hypothetical campaign for a client I know nothing about. I guess bitter is the word. Jealousy works too. 

I am excited with what the future holds, but there is so much more responsibility and it just seems weird to be out in this world that is way more competitive than school ever was. Now, I have to actually apply myself and know what I am doing in order to succeed. But what is success? Before, I could get by studying for a test the night before. Now, you have to be on your A-game all the time. It's truly just a weird feeling. Being a perpetual napper, you don't get to take random three-hour naps. However, I am thinking of starting the WFSC, (Workers for Siestas Coalition, let me know if you are interested. Also in this 'real' world, you become a habitual coffee drinker in order to keep your eyes open and you have to listen to that woman with the annoying, phlegmy hack all day, and all you want to do is hand her a new lung. 

I am making my job sound really bad. I love my job. It is actually going great. I just started last week, but it is awesome. I was busy all week and everyone is super nice. Every Friday there are bagels from Panera Bread and at the end of the day my row of cubicles had a dance party. No lie. I turned around in my chair, and the girl next to me was doing the Moonwalk down the aisle. I knew right then and there, I would fit in perfectly. So, the real world isn't all that bad. But it's still weird and taking some time to transition into. Change is good, but it takes time.

Oh, the company is a Internet security software company. They actually refer to themselves as an anti-malware company. So I am learning everything and anything I need to know about anti-virus protection, and anti-virus software, and all that awesome stuff. It's actually pretty interesting. So, I am officially a NERD. A cool one though.